2018 WILL Be My Year


Today is January 1, 2018 and as I have done every year I am making my New Year’s Resolutions.  For the past few years losing weight and being healthier have been on the top of my list, however, I was never able to fully complete it or cross it off my list.  So this year I want to try something a little different.

I want to do something that will hold me accountable for my day to day actions, something that I can look back on at the end of the week and reflect on how I did and what I can do better next week.  Because lets be honest, like most resolutions, they are outta sight outta mind come Valentines Day.

For too long I have been struggling with my weight and with low self esteem issues.  I put myself down on a daily basis because I am unhappy with the way that clothes fit me and the way I look in photos.  Then I go and eat fast food, or junk food, or sweets and in those few moments I feel better and okay with who I am and then the vicious cycle starts all over again.

This WILL be my year!  I am going to make a difference in my life and I want to share every moment with you, not only because it will keep me accountable for my day to day actions but because I want to inspire others. I want to show you how you can take charge of your own life and create your own happiness.  I am tired of comparing myself to others and telling myself that I will never be that thin or beautiful.  This WILL be my year!

My husband, my rock, Eric Ryan, will be by my side this year helping me to stay on track with eating healthier, being more active, and of course losing weight.  We spent today cleaning up our house and preparing for this new adventure.  We made a weekly schedule that we will be incorporating starting tomorrow morning.  We even went the entire day without any fast food (which is a big thing for us!) especially when we are off of work together.  We did have some ice cream for dessert today after dinner, which I know is not the best way to start the year off, but cutting out sugar for us will be the hardest thing that we will have to do.  We typically eat some type of sweets after every single meal!  So cutting out all desserts will be our biggest challenge, but something that I am ready to accomplish.

Here is to Day 1…. I am ready to start this new adventure in my life and see where this road takes me!  Here is to the start of the New Year and to a New and Healthier ME!



Day 3 – It’s Not All About The Food


On my journey to become a new, better, and healthier me I need to take a step back and realize that I should not judge myself only on what I eat and how much I lose.  Because lets face it, I am not going to be perfect all of the time, and if I hold myself to that standard then I am only going to be disappointed.

Having a healthier mind and soul is another thing that I would like to accomplish this year.  Not putting myself down on a day to day basis is something that is long over due.   Today I can honestly say that I felt great about myself and did not once make a comment about the way I look.  I must say that it felt great!  I know that I have areas of my body that I want to work on, I mean shoot, I am sure that all of us feel the same way about our bodies.  But to actually go a full day without bringing it up and focusing on it is something that I have not felt in a very long time.

I think I am going to try out some yoga classes and meditation along my journey.  I am hoping that this will allow me the opportunity to focus more on what is important to me and let go of the little stuff that takes up so much of my time.  I want to stop obsessing on the little things in life that will not make a difference one way or the other and focus on the things that are going to get me where I want to be in life.

There are 365 days in a year, I am only on day 3.  Things are not going to happen over night, you have to remember to take one step at a time.  If you take a wrong turn and your day does not end up like you originally planned that is OK!  The only way that you are going to succeed at this is to keep trying every single day.  Don’t give up!


Day 2 – Off To A Slow Start


As much as I would love to say that I have started this New Year off on the right foot, it would be a complete lie.  I don’t know if it is the cold weather, the huge amount of work sitting on my desk from the holidays, or that certain “time of the month” that decided to show up today, but my motivation has just gone down the drain.

I had every intention of being good today.  I started my day off with my coffee and banana and plenty of water.  Then lunch time came around and of course they had enchiladas today at work (one of my weaknesses).  I was good until that mid-afternoon lull hit me.  (Usually at this time I would be pigging out on some sweets that we always have laying around in the office.)  The temptation got the best of me and I broke down and had some Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups.  I wasn’t lying when I said that sweets will be the hardest thing that I have to give up.

I packed my workout clothes this morning along with my protein shake as I planned on going to the gym after work with my husband.  Well little did I know that the amount of work I needed to do today would overwhelm me and I would end up taking it home and skipping the gym.  I know that taking 30 minutes to go to the gym would have probably helped me to feel more relaxed but I just could not bring myself to postpone working a little bit longer.

Dinner, consisted of a little bit of sushi and some meat and potatoes and of course a handful of candy to share with my Husband. Like I said, motivation for today has just gone out the window.  I know this is going to be a tough road and if I want it bad enough then I am going to have to focus and get on track.  I know how to lose the weight and I know how to be healthy… I just need to have a heart to heart with myself and realize what is important to my and why I want to do this.

Am I disappointed in myself today….. yes, very much so.  But we have to learn from our mistakes and use them to help make us stronger.  I do not expect to be perfect from day one, but I do expect to not give up and keep trying day in and day out!